poign·ant

poin-yuhnt –adjective 

1.	keenly distressing to the feelings: poignant regret.

2.	keen or strong in mental appeal: a subject of poignant interest.

3.	affecting or moving the emotions: a poignant scene.

My niece, Cindi, called me at 1:30 this morning.  Danae's big sister.  Cindy told me at the funeral that even though she was 17 and Danae was 13, that Danae was her strength and that she didn't know what she was going to do without her.

Cindi had been looking at this website and when she got to my February 6 entry, she said she couldn't believe it:

[2] weeks

i still find it hard to think about anything but her ...

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
       and saves those who are crushed in spirit.  Psalm 34:18

She said, " Aunt Pam, I can't believe you put this verse. Like two weeks after all this happened my Aunt Cindy bought me the same bible that Danae read from ( the revolve devotional bible) and some how I came across this verse. I underlined it and I later read it to my mom over the phone. I have returned to this verse a thousand times since for comfort.  Isn't it funny how the Lord works?"

I was so glad she called me.

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Today, she emailed me these words ... her thoughts.  With her permission, I share them with you.

I haven't had the courage to talk about this until now.

   Danae is my best friend. She has been for the last 13+ years. I use the presence tense because no one ever will or can be the friend she was for me. We were unusually close for sisters, no one understood it but us. We were constantly holding hands, she would sit on my lap, or we would just sit there with our limbs intertwined. I know it sounds odd or perverse but its because we loved each other so much we just never could get close enough.

   I have a chemical imbalance that prevents me from feeling happy. I still laugh and joke and have a good time, but there is always this feeling deep inside my chest that causes me to be feel depressed and irritable. When Danae would put her arm around me and take my hand the sadness left. It was like she was the part of me that was constantly happy and optimistic. I felt a peace when we were together that the rest of the world had cheated us out of. We had a lot of sadness in the beginning of our life, and it wasnt till these last couple of years we really got close, but we felt the same pain through all of that. So when things got better i think thats what drew us even closer. I would give ANYTHING to have her hold my hand just one more time.

   I lost my happy half. This is so much harder because when i was sad, she was there to help me through it. When i get hugs i dont feel the same understanding and love as when Danae would comfort me. Brothers aren't the same as sister. Other sisters aren't like Danae. She was the most important thing in the world to me, when i lost all my friends, when i moved away from all my family, when i wasnt even wanted in my own house she stayed faithful as my best friend.

   I dont know if I'll ever find the happiness she gave on earth again, but there is one thing that keeps me strong and together. My Faith. Because when i leave this earth i have all of eternity to look foward to with Danae. We'll snuggle, and hold hand, and embrace all over again. And every one from Adam, to Noah, to Zacchaeus will talk about how weird the closeness of our relationship is but it won't matter. I'll be SO HAPPY again.

Thank you for giving me something to look foward to Nae Nae.

To the friends and family, stay strong and don't morn forever. Because this was just the beginning of the time we'll have to spend with her. Together forever in heaven with no pain or sorrow. I can't wait.

live every day like it was your last, to the fullest and full of faith

<3 loving sister,

           best friend for life and then some,

Cindi Marie

i still find it hard to think about anything but her ...

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
       and saves those who are crushed in spirit.  Psalm 34:18

She said, " Aunt Pam, I can't believe you put this verse. Like two weeks after all this happened my Aunt Cindy bought me the same bible that Danae read from ( the revolve devotional bible) and some how I came across this verse. I underlined it and I later read it to my mom over the phone. I have returned to this verse a thousand times since for comfort.  Isn't it funny how the Lord works?"

I was so glad she called me.

.

.

Today, she emailed me these words ... her thoughts.  With her permission, I share them with you.

Comments

[Paula Talluto]

Today I was thinking about you. Your beautiful smile. And I started to cry. Then I thought, Danae wouldn't want me to cry, she would want me to be happy because she's in a better place now, with Our Lord. Everytime I hear "The Dance" by Garth Brooks.. I love you Danae.

Aunt Paula

[Krista Mellett]

Hey,
I know that Danae and I were never really close friends, but she had a huge affect on my life both before and after she had moved on. I had met Danae in about the third grade, but we never really talked. But in seventh grade we started talking more and more. And this year she finally became part of my C-Group. It was so much fun having her around! She was so silly all the time and would always preach to us about God. My favorite moment with her was when we were having our super C-Group and we had all changed into our pj's and went down stairs to eat. While we were down there, we herd this thumping noise upstairs, so we went to check it out. When we got up there, there was Danae and Carolina with sleeping bags over their head running into each other! We were all laughing! I also remember the last C-Group meeting before she had passed away. They had just had a mud fight and there was mud all in her hair! I tried to help her get it out! Thats why it was so hard for me to believe it that she had passed away on Tuesday. I didn't believe it. It had really hit me Wednesday. I came to school and it was totaly quiet. I looked around and I realized how much she really meant to me and everyone else. I was bursting into tears. I suddenly started to realize what the phrase "You never know what you got until it's gone" really meant.
Danae had affected my life in so many ways and still is and all I have to say is "Thank you Danae!"
-Krista

[alex donnell]

hello i am one of danaes friends that aslo didnt know her as well as some people but i think i knew her well enough to cry my eyes out when i found out that she wasnt going to be coming to school the next day.
monday during epic i say justin and danae giving eachother hugs as they went back into their epic classes, but before danae went back into coach keparts room ( sorry for speling ) she said to justin see you later and then she turned around and said hi to me. i thought to myself cool she said hi to me.
no i never went to danae's house or called her but i did hang out with her at another friend of danae's. her name is jackie rush who is also one of my close friends. we spent the night over at jackie's and stayed up late talking and playing hide and go seek. the only bad thing about that is that i can barly remember that night we all spent together.i think it was in about 6th or seventh but its to far away for me to remember.
when i first herd the news i started to cry but i aslo didnt belive it.
my friend amanda told me that all of her friends were passing out ribbions in rememberance or her. unfortanatky that was a day that i slept in late so i didnt get a ribbion.
but i made my own just for her.i really wish i could do whatever it takes to bring her back so that i coulkd be better firnds and that monda night i could have let her stay over at my house so this could just be a really bad NIGHTMARE!! i wish there was some way we could all forget about what happened and danae would come walking into school with a huge smile on her face. because life IS to short.so dont take it for granted and live life to the fullest
- danae
i really wish i could have known danae better than what i did and i hope she will say hi to my moms brother for me because i never got to meet him so i hope you can tell him im not that bad and when ever he is felling down with a frown brightin his day with your wounderful smile and personality.
i still love you danae and so do your friends and family never change
love you friend
alex d.

[Kayla Davis]

Heyy, I was one of danaes friedns at Medlin Middle School from last year in 7th to now in 8th grade. I know that we were not the great of friends or bestfriends but we knew each other and we were friends. We had 2nd period P.E. together and it was soooo....much funn in there because she always made me smile and laugh and cheered me up when I was down and blue. Danae I always thought of her as the most sweetest, intelligent, kindest, smartes, cutiest, funniest, and funn to be around with at school. She always had this beautifull bigg gorgeous smile on her face everyday. She believed in "GOD" more than anyone I knew and she talked about more than anyone I knew also. She was so gorgeous. I loved the way she dressed everyday at school. She always looked pretty when she came to school with eyeliner on. mascare, blush, glitter, lipgloss, necklace, bracelets, and her rings. She had pretty and gorgeous brunette hair (DARK) She also had pretty big dark brown eyes also she had this cool walk of hers that I love because I wish I could walk like her too =]]...I know that she is in a better place and even though she was young and still is it was just her time to go and see what "JESUS" is like and what heaven is like!! "JESUS" he just needed another beautifull and gorgeous angel up there with him to watch all over his children down here on earth...It was just fast to see her go like that....I mean come on' that could've been someone else...why our DANAE...??? But no matter what she will always be my bestfriend and now I know I have someone to talk to in heaven when I am down here on earth and I be seein' her soon up t here because I can't wait either. Her birthday is this month in febuary on the 28th and that will be my last day to cry out all my tears and love and just my emotions to her. I am sorry for the "Talluto Family"...I hope that Marco Talluto is okayyy and that I am sorry for him as well and I will attend "Cross Timbers" in Keller and Argyle every sunday for Danae and "GOD"!!!! Soooo....thats all I have to say and R.I.P Danae Elizabeth Talluto And I Love You To Death And I Miss You Now And Forever!!!! I am gonna live my life to the fullest for you because your life went by and went away too fast and from this day on lifes too short so go on and live it the fullest because you never know it could've happened to you!!!! P.S. Have a great time in heaven and you wish you were here with us all down here becuase we all need you!!!! Love Kayla or Kay!!!! =]]
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[Shelby Johnson]

Hello,
Im one of Danae's friends. We wernt best friends this year or the last but we were in 3-5th grade. I feel sick everytime i think that this can happen to someone my age
On january 23 in 8th period i was joking around and didnt think much about the empty chair next to mine. All of a sudden my EPIC teacher started crying and he wouldnt tell us why. After everyone had left he called me and my friend London to his desk and told us that a student at medlin had passed. My mind became flooded with questions on "who, When, HOw?" I asked if she was one of my friends and he said yes. I started crying and was trying to figure out who had been absent that day. i could think of no one. I went home, walked my dogs and sat on the couch going through my phone. I happened to have a teachers number (i babysat for her) so i called her and asked. She said she couldnt say anything but to look on startelegram.com. I ammeidiatly logged on and saw the front page. My eyes scanned the article. All of i sudden i burst out in a mix of yelps and tears and screams. My mom ammeidietly came in the room looking to see if i was ingured. When she saw me pointig at the computer she looked at the screen and started crying (she was danae's 3rd grade techer) The first person i called was Justin (her boyfriend) it rang 2 times before he picked up. He was crying and i was the second person that had called him so far. He was home alone in his room all upset. I then called my friend london who lived 3 streets away. She slept over and we talked about how hard it was to loose a friend. I can compare to how her family feels because i lost my dad in 5th grade. A death in the family is terrible and i wish noone had to go through this. we should all live by what danae said on her myspace "life is short so live it upp"
//shelby//