im·ag·i·na·tion

.[i-maj-uh-ney-shuhn]  –noun   

1.	the faculty of imagining, or of forming mental images or concepts of what is not actually present to the senses.

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Let your mind wander for a moment.  Look at this picture and listen to the words of his song.  Imagine.  Meeting Jesus.

And seeing Danae.  Once again.

"I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...
    I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!"
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...no more hunger, no more thirst, no more scorching heat. The Lamb on the Throne will shepherd them, will lead them to spring waters of Life. And God will wipe every last tear from their eyes. Rev. 7:17

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Song by MercyMe "I Can Only Imagine"

Comments

[AJ]

I know what you mean, Toni. I never felt like the outcast or anything, but more like I was only
"in" when the family was in trouble. And they needed someone. But it doesn't matter to me that much as time goes on. Because when something bad happens people still act how they feel, just in technicolor. So I guess that it makes sense that it's then that I'd feel most valued.

I've been listening to that song from her video by The Fray. I think that I can only listen to it a few more times before it'll be too much. Also I've been listening to "The Scientist" by Coldplay a lot. It makes me feel better but the music video makes me feel sick. Here are the lyrics:

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

[Toni]

This song is one I've played everyday since she left us. I just keep repeating it over and over and over, and even when it's not playing on my stereo it's playing in my head. It makes me think of her and helps me recall the things I knew about her. But most of all, it reminds me of what I didn't know, how much I let slip by me; it reminds me of what I don't want to let happen with the rest of my cousins. It's killing me how little I knew of the young woman she was becoming; of how little I know of them all. I remember them all as babies, especially Cindi, Marco, Danae and Joe. I babysat them so much when they were little, but then somewhere along the line life got in the way. I never felt like I fit in much with my family so I shut myself out, I pushed myself away. I always felt like I was the BIG disappointment of the family, the big screw up. But the fact is that regardless of the mistakes I've made I know my family are the only ones who will love and accept me regardless of the idiotic choices I make. No one ever shut me out, I did that to myself. So now I have to live with the fact that I deprived myself of really knowing someone as truly incredible as I'm finding out Danae was. I won't let that happen again. Regardless of the distance that separates us, I will do my best to know my family. And for those we've lost, that I didn't get the opportunity to know as well as I would have hoped. . ."I can only imagine, when that day comes. . ."